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All the people I feared in the beginning, turned out to be good, 
and all the people I thought I could trust, turned out to hurt me the most.
Everyone I have on that old friends list is a friend but most of the time when I'm down, they're not there.
I have a few people right here that I'm grateful for because everyone needs someone,
even the people who won't admit it.
~Yesterday's Storm~




As you grew mean, they would sink,
My heart dropped,
Your love painting over the loom,

Wash lined horizon,
Your fractured spine,
Walls, not figures,

Yesterday's willing to let you see another breath,
In your sea, the storm steals melodies off the moon-soaked waves,
There would be too much to please you with,
 
How do I get close?
And settle somewhere with you,
Not that I could,

At sunset, pink drenched the clouds
Sunbeams along the ocean
Where will you be?

The moon called out,
That sun was not found  in me,
Your current light aligned my aura among Earth.






Yesterday's Storm © NeuroticLust/Amanda P.
Yesterday's Storm
I wrote this for a contest on allpoetry.com where contestants were given a word bank and could only use the words provided. Here's the word bank;

Aligned
Along
Another
Aura
Among
Breath
Current
Clouds
Close
Called
Cheeks
Dust
Drenched
Dropped
Earth
Figures
Fractured
Found
Grew
Get
Heart
Horizon
Love
Loom
Light
Lined
Let
Moon
Moon-soaked
Melodies
Mean
Ocean
Off
Over
Out
Painting
Please
Pink
Sun
Storm
Spine
Sunset
Steals
Sea
Sink
Sunbeams
Settle
Somewhere
See
There
Waves
Willing
Wash
Walls
Would
Yesterday's


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Do
Don't
How (x2)
I (x2)
In (x2)
My (x2)
Me
Much
Not (x3)
To (x2)
The (x6)
Too
They
That (x2)
Where (x3)
Were (x2)
With (x2)
When
Was
Would (x2)
Will
You (x5)
Your (x4)

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~Meant To Last~





All the things that are supposed to make life easier,
Just make it harder trying to find them,
Attempting to read faces and you haven't the foggiest idea,

Time is running away, afraid that you'll catch up to it,
When you were young you saw the world the way it was meant to be seen,
Now you hide it all away and call it daydreaming,

You asked God for help in your darkest times,
Always thought it never came,
You didn't appreciate it when it did, so as it was, it remained,

You can't sleep because it's better to watch the sky than face hell,
Coming home and being asked if it's really you,
Makes you regret that you left,

A mother knows her child's face,
The dog still remembers your voice,
Keep a rein on all the memories as they come back to you,

Scared out of your wits that you had exhausted the strength of love,
Aware of a touch you never thought you'd feel again,
You suffer without yielding, waiting patiently for what is meant to last.




Meant To Last © NeuroticLust/Amanda P.
Meant To Last
Inspired by a line from Tom Waits' On The Nickel "So what becomes of all the little boys, who run away from home, well the world just keeps gettin' bigger, once you get out on your own..." Please leave a :+fav: and a comment if you enjoyed this poem. Thank you, everyone.
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I'm 21. I don't fuck around, I don't drink, I don't smoke, I rarely do drugs. 

I'm low risk by anyone's standards but lately I've been preoccupied with contemplating death,
I think about suicide when life gets hard, I feel spoiled because I live such that some people wouldn't consider my problems actual problems. I hate myself most of the time. Other people look past me like I'm not there, sometimes I feel so routine and transparent that I might as well not even be here. 

So what am I afraid of? I'm afraid of a big loss, like someone's who was ALWAYS there not being there anymore. 

If I was always almost destroyed by tiny things, I'm terrified of what can happen when life REALLY gives me something to cry about. 

I'm killing myself worrying about all this and I'm killing myself by not taking care of myself and I don't know how to stop myself from doing so.
~Beyond Sleep~





You know what they do when you die?

They cut you open,
They could tell what your last meal was,
Whether it was nothing but pain or nothing at all,

If I had the choice, I would have never been born,
I never would have gone through a life I knew would reach an end,
I don't want to feel myself begone,

I don't want to feel my lungs stop taking air,
Or my heart stop beating,
And my brain go blank,
And my body go numb,

But I'm here and there will be a time where I'll close my eyes,
Fall into a dream world beyond sleep,

We'll be in a box alone,
In the ground where it's cold,
And the only visitors we'll get are whoever's in the neighborhood,
Or the feasting worms,

If there's no life after life on earth,
We simply stop remembering,
Feeling,

Nobody's right and nobody's wrong,
Slipping into nothingness,
A dream beyond sleep,

Then they dress you up,
Have a party,
And put you away.






Beyond Sleep © NeuroticLust/Amanda P.
All the people I feared in the beginning, turned out to be good, 
and all the people I thought I could trust, turned out to hurt me the most.
Everyone I have on that old friends list is a friend but most of the time when I'm down, they're not there.
I have a few people right here that I'm grateful for because everyone needs someone,
even the people who won't admit it.

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